31 Weeks - a few days late

How far along: 31 Weeks

Total weight gain: next question? ha. I think around 25 pounds. SH**. That's how much I wanted to gain my entire pregnancy and I have nine weeks left. Makes me curse. And cry.

Maternity clothes: Yes

Stretch marks: No

Sleep: Sucks

Best moment of this week: Another appointment with the midwife - she was startled by how active my baby is when she was checking heart rate, haha! HR was 140's

Miss anything: BEING SKINNY. Running. 

Movement: Yes 

Food cravings: Ice cream and Dr Pepper

Anything making you queasy or sick: No

Have you started to show yet: Yes.

Gender: girl

Labor signs: no

Belly button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or moody most of the time: Moody

Looking forward to: losing this weight! and getting all our baby gear after the next baby shower.

Exercise: Walking more. Leanna said what I describe from walking is just my abdominal muscles flexing and working - not braxton hicks or contractions. So I've increased milage some to doing more 3 mile walks. Still not going super fast - I have a lot of pulling near my pelvic bone to hip bone. I was not motivated this week to do much, but I worked out almost every day anyway.

additional symptoms: Steve can feel when she has the hiccups now :)

Heart burn is pretty bad.

I have been super hungry this week :( Back to waking up in the middle of the night or really early wanting a sandwich.
Horrible gas. Super embarrassing.
Speaking of embarrassing. I SNEEZED AND PEED MYSELF A LITTLE AT THE GYM THIS WEEK FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. I have increased kegel exercises. I cried. I really hope it's short term and only a pregnant thing. Now I'm worried about having that be a regular problem postpartum. :(
Shortness of breath! OH my WORD sometimes it is sudden and kind of scares me! It can be hard for me to catch my breath and I almost feel like I've had the wind knocked out of me. I haven't been able to breathe well enough to get my heart rate very high during workouts.

I can definitely feel her getting bigger and stronger. I try not to complain about how much she moves and be thankful, because I'd freak out if it stopped! ha. It's been a hard week for me - I just don't like being pregnant. It's hard to not just give up and eat whatever BS I want b/c I feel like weight gain is inevitable - which it is, to a certain extent. My emotional eating is definitely making it worse, though! Steve has been great and trying to support me by going on walks with me and making me salads and offering to cook healthy food when I'd rather just go out to eat. I'm a mess. Oh, well. Here's to tomorrow! ;)

30 Weeks

Slacking over here! All is well, I just didn't get around to updating last week. And I'm a few days late now with the 30 week update, too. Last weekend Canaan threw a baby shower for me in Woodward! It was great seeing everyone there and we got the best gifts! Lots of adorable clothes and tons of stuff I needed for our babies arrival. :) I will share pictures on a separate post when I get them from my mom. I have a few from my phone - I was NOT happy with how big my face is in pictures! I should probably do the 10 day smoothie cleanse before my next shower in OKC October 3rd.

Dad came yesterday with Joy & Eleanor and painted the nursery while Joy was seeing Steve for some dental work. He also hung the chandelier! It still makes me so giddy!! I'm still in shock I'm going to have a baby!

How far along: 30 Weeks

Total weight gain: 21lbs. I've been really watching what I eat and trying to eat at home and clean meals! Except the last two days and baby shower day. Blah. But I was pleasantly surprised to see that I had lost a little weight and not gained any the last two weeks - not eating junk food pays off! :)

Maternity clothes: Yes

Stretch marks: No

Sleep: Not well.

Best moment of this week: The baby shower was awesome!!

Miss anything: Being small!

Movement: Yes :D

Food cravings: Chocolate! Peanut butter M'M's (haven't caved yet!) and chocolate cupcakes - I've had two :(

Anything making you queasy or sick: No

Have you started to show yet: Yes.

Gender: GIRL  <3

Labor signs: braxton hicks only

Belly button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or moody most of the time: Moody - pray for Steve! haha

Looking forward to: Holding my little girl & being skinny again! and RUNNING

Exercise: Doing more and more workouts at home. I do not workout at the gym unless I have to go in for something. Next week I'll have to approve my time card and turn in training cards so I'll plan to use the gym then, but that's it. I'm really self-conscious about my body (and now, after seeing pictures of myself, my face as well!)

TIU's fall challenge is encouraging everyone to use an app that will log miles walked, run, or biked and donate to a charity of your choosing. Since I don't walk more than one mile at a time (uterus gets hard and stays hard until I stop at about 1 mile..) I've been biking a lot. I usually stay in the neighborhood so I hope that doesn't get too boring too fast, haha. Today I biked a little over 4 miles and I was pretty bored. I was so tired I'm glad I didn't do more. Tons of people recommend exercise to pregnant women as a way to feel better and actually have more energy -- I have not had this happen once. Maybe I feel good during (not always!) but not much else. I can't imagine how much weight I would have gained by now if I had stopped exercising, though.. So there's that! Haha. ;)

additional symptoms: lot's of heart burn :( I have awful gas. It's pretty dang hard to shave my bikini line. Next time I'll have to use a mirror. Ha! Some days I am SO exhausted and feel icky and moody. I use to think it was days after I exercised too much but now I'm not sure. I didn't exercise at all yesterday and today I was just a grouch! I probably should have just stayed in bed longer this morning. Constipation has been better since I've been eating better - DUH. 

Hard to believe the countdown is less than 10 weeks!!

28 weeks - 7th Month - THIRD TRIMESTER

Well this past week has been eventful. Laura & Ronnie's wedding was last weekend - it was fun, but it wore me out! My ankles were pretty swollen by the end of the night, the most swollen I've ever seen! The indentions from my socks was probably close to an inch deep. I slept pretty much the entire next day... I received SO many sweet compliments - it helped boost my self esteem that day. Never lasts long enough, ha.

I've had lots of emotional break downs this week.. I hate going to the gym and am so embarrassed by how big I'm getting. If I hadn't widened out, my arms had stayed the same size and I didn't gain so much fat around my hips and lower back I don't think I would feel as self-conscious, but I can't be sure. I've cried a lot about it. I'm also afraid I won't be able to get small again and get back to healthy eating PP. Healthy eating has been such a struggle lately, I'm tempted to think I'll struggle with it forever now!
I hate that I'm so obviously big. Lord have mercy on the stranger that thinks I may want to talk about my pregnancy with them. I am not friendly about it. Which is a big reason I'm not taking any more clients -- I don't want to talk about my pregnancy at work with strangers. I have one client I especially like and I feel pretty comfortable talking with her about it, but that's it.
It also drives me crazy that people ask me how I'm feeling. One day I'll snap and tell them specifically how miserable I am. I'd think the bags under my eyes and general less-than-excited demeanor would give it away. I avoid eye contact as much as possible.

How far along: 28 Weeks

Total weight gain: 22lbs... So I'm not sure if I should throw away the goal of only gaining 25lbs this entire pregnancy? It would make sense that if I stop eating junk and just eat healthy meals that I wouldn't gain much more b/c I may lose fat I keep on me just by eating crap. But I'm not sure.

Maternity clothes: Yes

Stretch marks: No

Sleep: Quantity over quality.

Best moment of this week: Joy and her kids came to visit - it was nice to be able to visit with them without having to travel, lol. I planned to clean and cook before they came, but I felt pretty awful that morning and ended up staying in bed. Joy & Eleanor cleaned the kitchen and it was amazing. :)

Miss anything: Being small!

Movement: Yes :D

Food cravings: Junk food! Candy, ice cream, cookies, bacon cheeseburger - you name it.

Anything making you queasy or sick: No

Have you started to show yet: Yes.

Gender: GIRL  <3

Labor signs: occasional braxton hicks

Belly button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or moody most of the time: Moody - pray for Steve! haha

Looking forward to: Holding my little girl & being skinny again! and RUNNING

Exercise: I started a challenge a couple weeks ago from Lauren Gleisberg, whom I found on instagram - it's been mostly weights and machines and has been a lot easier to follow along than TIU workouts because I have to modify a lot less. So I've enjoyed doing that, even though I go back and forth about 'what's the point' when I keep over eating so I don't see results anyway. But it's good for my heart, and it'll be easier for me to get back to exercising after if I keep up even anything now. I also remind myself how darn heavy carseats are when I'm doing upper body ;) Also that the more muscle I retain during my pregnancy, the more I will have to show (and use) when I slim down PP (because I keep hearing that I will from breastfeeding..) 
I'm not sure why but when I went on a walk the other night my uterus started contracting and it stayed tight for my last little bit home and until I got in the shower. Maybe a total of 8 minutes? I think I may have been dehydrated. But I was surprised I had to stop after just 1 mile of walking. I've only had this happen from walking. Not that I walk much anyway, it's still 90 degrees outside most days and I usually pick the elliptical or stair master over the treadmill if I'm at the gym.
After my client's sessions are over I am not training or working out at the gym anymore. I'm just too embarrassed and I'd rather workout at home in my sports bra anyway. Maybe I can convince Steve to get a treadmill for Christmas.. hehe ;)

Additional Symptoms: My upper abdominals have separated. It felt pretty similar to when the lower ones did - hurt one day, separated the next. It doesn't hurt bad, but it is definitely uncomfortable and feels literally like my abs are being stretched apart. She's still very active (I love it!!) and sometimes she hits/kicks straight down - it's pretty startling, but when I get on the bed and lay my head down and stick my butt up in the air, she'll move. I also do this if my stomach hurts (either uterus/abdomen growing or actual stomach from eating too much or just junk food) or if my back hurts and it helps immensely. Laying on my stomach, using my pregnancy pillow like a tube around my belly for support, also helps. I'm itching like crazy. I could not sleep without our humidifier.